Where do I fit in this circle called life? It's as if everyone is moving along without me into a world I don't completely understand. I like to think of myself at this point as having grown up and acquired some kind of adultly world knowledge. I used to think that maybe with the right dress, good shoes, classic designer hand bag,...bam, instant grown up. Although I looked the part, I never quite felt it (I still don't). Why do we have to grow up anyway? Most of the adults I know are uptight and stuffy, well...except my friend slim. He's the youngest oldest person I know, and even he is starting to inherit the stuffy gene (on account he's become this big CEO, and all). There is still that faint glimmer of youth in him, but it's quickly fading.
My 10yr high school reunion is coming up, and I'm afraid that I'll have nothing to show for myself for the last 10yrs. With my husband currently living in Vermont, I don't even have a date. What if I'm the only person at the reunion missing the gene that makes you grow up and turn all stuffy, what if my grown up gene is broken...
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Hey Raya, I'm 48 and I still don't feel all grown up. I don't think I look 48 (ignore the extra pounds) and I don't feel 48 (whatever that's supposed to feel like). So, maybe you have a point. Do you think I'm uptight and stuffy? I don't think I am. However, even though you and I (and your mom--Miss 21) may not feel grown up, there's still a responsibility with being grown up--good decisionmaking and right choices. Funny, I've fallen short on that too! You're as young (or as old) as you feel and think. Smell the roses and enjoy life.
ReplyDeleteDon't think you have nothing to show for yourself over the past 10 years. You do. Stop looking at the negative and look at the positive. You've participated in all those pagents, graduated from college, worked, got married, and other things you're doing now that I'm not aware of. You are a young lady on the go. Life always throws us bumps. You can't get away from that. Just keep standing no matter what comes your way. Be strong in the Lord and the power of His might. You are a young, intelligent, beautful sister and you should be proud. You have one of the best uplifing personalities that I know of. Stay the way you are.
Love your blog! The page is pretty.
Ok so if you feel as if you have nothing to show for yourself...what about me? I'm single....at least your married. So what if Ethan will be in Vermont. I'm going to the reunion by myself...and will have a damn good time. You can be my date if you want to. ALot of married couples are not even taking their spouses....and trust me there will be lost of people at the reunion in worse off situations than us....
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